why am i so undecided?

When it comes to my food choices, life changing choices, hair color or boyfriends I'm the most undecided person I ever met. I always try harder to get to better stages but i always seem to walk with my feet going toward the opposite direction. I always end up regreting many things because of my stubborness and I think it shows in my physical features. My hair is bright yellow blonde and it is dry and dull because I was blonde, then brunette, then a mixed and now it is light as it can be. When it comes to relationships I am always the dumpy always looking for a better catch and then go back to what I considered before not good enough. Right now i am in a possition where i didn't expect to be but I should have because I know myself quite well. As i mentioned in my other blog I quit my waitress possition and started my new job working in the retail business and it sucks. Why am i am so undecited?Why am i always debating and comparing and contrast and making such bad decisions? now I am just hoping ruby tuesday takes me back in order to work the two jobs. I seem to only make matters worst all the time. Good luck to me this time around.

iris

My favorite song is sung by the Goo Goo dolls, and it is called Iris. It's featured as the theme song to my favorite movie"City of Angels". This song has the most incredibly beautiful words I've ever heard. The song is poetry, a wonderful definition of deep and unconditional love, which is rare to find and define. I could never find the better words to describe love until this song. This is the song I want played at my wedding, someday.

This song has always been a mystery to me. So complex that I don't know if I would ever feel the way the narrator of the song feels, but I get goosebumps with just the thought of coming close to it. If i only could someday, I could not be more satisfied with life. I'm a dreamer and believer that things happen for a reason. As cliche as this seems, because of this song; I believe. I believe in magic, angels, love and god.